I had my first panic attack when I was 21 years old. I had only just finished university. Sixteen years later I am still experiencing them. At least I was until a couple of months ago.
The longer you experience panic attacks, and the more specialists you see with no long term results, the harder it becomes to go on. The only thing that ever worked for me was to go on anti depressants, which I knew was only just a band-aid and not a long-term solution.
After another bad bout of attacks, and trying more different therapies, I would finally give in and take the medication again. I would put up with feeling even more ill than I already was until my body got used to the drugs and it finally settled down a month later. The panic attacks would stop and my life would resume as I knew it. I would then put on weight, feel void of a lot of emotion, and this time I would also experience constant night sweats. I put up with it for 12 months until I decided I was well enough to go off the medication again. And of course, given this was never a long term solution, three months after being drug free, the panic attacks returned to haunt me again.
This time I was determined to beat it without medication. I went to a new therapist and we would talk. I rationally understood everything she was telling me but my brain was hard wired to panic as soon as I felt the symptoms. For me that was anything from feeling nauseas to being over tired, both of which you couldn’t always avoid. When you are anxious you don’t sleep well, making you more overtired, adding to the anxiety. So I sought out more alternative therapies. I would spend every spare moment researching anything that could help me. This time I tried acupuncture again, amino acid therapy and colonic irrigation. All of which did not stop the attacks. By this point I felt ill every day, wasn’t sleeping and definitely wasn’t coping. The panic was controlling me. I honestly felt like I couldn’t go on living anymore.
I was scared to be alone in case another panic came on. When you have anxiety you fear the fear. The doctor wanted to put me back on some different anti depressants, gave me some sleeping pills and had signed me off work for a month on stress leave. It got so bad that my partner was afraid to leave me on my own. I was living in London and after my parents saw the state I was in, my mother got straight on a plane and came over to help.
This had now been going on for about a month and I had lost almost ten kilos. Given I only weighed 50 to start with, I was left looking very frail as you can imagine. I was now not only anxious but also deeply depressed. A massage therapist who had been through depression herself, told me about Reiki, which is a form of healing. Mum thought I should try it so we found a lady near by. I found that it helped to take the edge off at times and helped me relax. I would say it even eased the depression. The best part about it was the reiki master helself as she really cared about my wellbeing and genuinely was there to help. She even answered the phone at midnight when I phoned her in a terrible state one night and stayed talking to me to help me through it until 3:30am. You don’t get many people like that. I loved her. The truth of the matter is it helped but didn’t stop the attacks either.
I had started to sleep much better now that I was on the sleeping pills. I would have some good days and bad days. A month later it was time to go back to work. I was still quite fragile but managed to get through the days. Some days were harder than others. My mother felt like I was on the mend and had to go back to Australia to work. I cried and feared what would happen to me when she left, but the Christmas break would arrive soon, so we were going to spend it with my partners family. It would be good for me to be around them.
We arrived and I told myself I would try and be positive around them as I didn’t want to be a burden or to worry them also. Only problem was I had run out of the sleeping pills, only to find out they were addictive when I tried to stop them. The doctor in the country wouldn’t prescribe me any more for this reason so I was left to go cold turkey. My nightmare was back and worse than ever. I couldn’t function or see the light anymore. I was now taking Nytol (an over the counter sleeping pill). I went six whole days without a wink of sleep and then it finally broke. Some nights I would get some sleep and other nights not so much. By this stage I was so frightened of going to bed and not sleeping that I was almost having panic attacks every night. Bed now equalled fear. I would worry about it before I even went to bed. Not a recipe for sleep.
My partner and I made the decision to move to Australia to be closer to my family. Both my parents then came back to London to help us pack up the house to take some pressure off. We made the move in early February. Packing up my life after seven years abroad and leaving a job I loved, and friends that had become like family to be was stressful in itself. Not to mention how my partner must have felt leaving his family behind and having to look after me whilst being sick with worry.
We arrived back in Melbourne to a loving welcome from my family. I loved seeing them all and my four beautiful nieces who I missed so much. Everyone thought being home around family would help my condition but it didn’t. When you fear the fear no matter where you are it is not going to disappear.
We were staying at my parents house and I would continue to have nights where I would keep everyone awake after feeling ill and getting myself in such a state because I couldn’t sleep. I was losing hope by the day. We were all at our wits end. As I was in a new country I now had no healthcare professionals that were helping me. My mother and I began the search once again. As we had become aware and open to healing in London, we both independently came across a website for Ancient Russian Healing, so mum decided to give Isabella a call. Her website said that she could heal the central nervous system. She said she could help, so off I went to see her.
We listened whilst Isabella told us about this therapy that had been in her family for generations. Her grandmother had been very famous in Russia and she had been doing this for 35 years. She uses semiprecious metals that have the ability to repair and reactive damaged nerves. Apparently the therapy eliminates the root of the problem rather than putting a band-aid on it. She said I would be healed. She was so confident, and I was so desperate that I really had no choice but to believe her. So I gave it a go. What did I have to lose, except more money.
Isabella told me that the treatment would force the body to eliminate what had built up inside so I would probably feel ill. I did. Some days worse than others. I was having treatments three days per week to push it out of my body. Two weeks later I noticed that my sleep was still broken and there were still a lot of worry but I had stopped panicking. This continued. Could the panic attacks have actually stopped? It was like my brain had been re-wired. Week by week I would still feel sick some days due to the elimination process but I would always notice small changes. One week I would have one night where I would get upset from not sleeping, the next I would still experience this but only for a few hours. Then I would experience the worry when I went to bed but I would fall asleep. The week just gone by I have noticed that the worry is gone. I no longer fear getting into bed.
I have been having the treatment for three months now and it is still a fear in the back of my mind that the panic attacks will come back because it is too good to be true. But they haven’t. There is an actual possibility for the first time in my life that I could be panic free and I’m doing it without medication. The thought brings tears to my eyes. From utter despair to a life full of possibilities. I could never have imagined it. I have come further in three months than I have in the last 16 years.
I always said that if I was ever cured, I would want to spread the word and help others to not go through what I have. So hear I am doing so. The saddest thing about Isabella’s therapy is that the world doesn’t know about it. The people that seem to find her are those that have hit rock bottom. There is help there before people need to experience that feeling.
A little about the therapy. Its 100% safe and doesn’t involve oral intake of any medicines, which means its ideal for children also. It uses the natural healing abilities of certain semiprecious metals that have the ability to repair and reactivate damaged nerves. Isabella believes, and her therapy proves, that the central nervous system controls the health and wellbeing of our bodies and minds. So, if you repair the damaged nerves causing the problem, which this treatment does, you will restore your system back to optimum health.
Not only am I free from panic attacks and sleeping again, but I am thinking more clearly than before, I am full of ideas and bursting with creativity. Its like I am alive.
The absolutely unbelievable thing for anyone reading this article is that the therapy does not just cure anxiety and depression. I have spoken to people who have been treated and are currently being treated by Isabella that have suffered with a Stroke, Multiple Sclerosis, and Vertigo just to name a few. I have also read many of the testimonials from patients that this therapy has successfully treated, something traditional medicine and other therapies have been unable to conquer. It treats psychological, neurological and physical conditions. Here are just a few that I believe it can treat based on what I have experienced, seen, heard, and read:
Psychological –Panic Attacks, Depression,Bipolar, Schizophrenia,Behavioural problems, anger, fear and phobia, obsessions, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, Anorexia, ADHD
Neurological & Physical –Multiple Sclerosis, Motor Neurone, Chronic Fatigue,Alzheimer’s, Autism, Aspergers, fainting, pinched nerves, migraines, stoke, backpain, poor blood circulation, migraine, insomnia, digestive disorders includingIBS
I know what you are thinking. What? How? Not possible? I would have thought the same three months ago but I can promise you it is possible. I still have to pinch myself every day to believe it. The unbelievable thing is that we have her here in Melbourne. I know a lot of people are not open to healing and the things that we don’t understand but I urge anyone who is suffering to try it. I am happy to talk to anyone who would like to know more. Isabella and her therapy have changed my life. She has given me my life back.
Isabella’s web site is http://ancientrussianhealing.com.au and her phone number is 03 9596 4880.